so, it is about 2:13 A.M. and i all i've been doing is crying since probably about 1.  this whole deal sucks.  i feel like the biggest idiot, like i've lost all of my friends or something. and then my mom is calling me yelling at me and getting mad for losing a ring. and what do you know, my birthday is coming up too! yea, basically one of the shittiest weeks.i don't know what's going on, or what has been going on.  all i know is that i've screwed up with a lot of my friendships.  it's basically all my fault. and there's no one to blame but me.  i let myself lose touch with everyone. which was the stupidest thing of my life, because i had the best friendships anyone could have ever had.  and i will never forget any of them and how each of them has affected my life.  they have been there for me through everything, and probably know me more than anyone else.  it just sucks because i was just stupid and didn't try to fix anything. all it was were words, but never actually doing something about it. yupp, that was me, being the stupid justine i am. it's just so hard but i put it all on myself. i thought i was having the time of my life here at san francisco.  but when i go back home, i feel like i've just messed everything up.  things at home, with my parents, with my friends. with just everything.  all i can do is just try to fix things.  try to make things better, i really do hope that things will become better. because it will be the least thing i would want to lose any of my friends. i love you all, to death. and i hope that things will work out soon. even though we are all at different schools, i really do hope things will become better. i hope things with my parents become better. all i want to be is happy. at least for my birthday, because i feel like at a lot of my birthdays, there's something missing. i mean, not that my birthdays weren't fun, but there was just always something that stopped me from being completely happy. and i know i'm being selfish, i'm sorry. but just for that one day. i hope things will be okay.

Okay well, I have to blog again because I don't want to forget anything that happened this night. ANYWAYS It's Hieu's birthday today!! Awwww I love Hieu!! This will all be dedicated to his birthday. or to him i mean. His birthday. ahAHah and him. aAHhaa well, went to Mel's to get ready, Ely wore a dress (Sorry, I told you too. =/ ahAHa but it was cute!!! ). Mel wore our matching shirts! But I wore the other shirt. ahAHa Nat wore casual clothes, she wanted to be comfortable. Well we were fashionably late, or everyone was late. Okay, well, on our way, Jeff or Danny called and they said that Cheesecake factory said a 2-3 hour wait. and it was 6:00?! So, I guess they cancelled it? And when we get there, we meet up with Hieu, Danny, Loren, Robert, Gabe, Gabes friend, Aya, Frank, David, Jeff, Anna, Philip and Ian. I hope I'm not forgetting anyone!!? Well then we try figuring out where we're gonna eat, and we walk around and walk to Chevy's, and Loren, Rome, and Mel drive to Chili's and not Chevy's but we later find out that it's also a 2 hour. We end up wanting to go back to Cheesecake factory but find out reservations were cancelled!! ahAHhaa Hieu was real bummed, you could tell. =/. We're sorry =(. So we go to California Pizza because we thought Danny made reservations, and they said it'd be 30-45 minutes. Danny, Me, Jeff, and Ian drive to Valley Fair, and the others walk. Then we get there earlier, and Me Jeff and Ian go into this speaker store, and there's like a mini movie thing. AND me and Ian got so scared during that freaking thunder part. AHaHAHa it was funny, we literalli jumped. Well I mean are legs and arms went flying. aHAHah then we get out early, and meet the others, and go into this girly store. It was funny stuff, balls with freaking nipples. ahAHa well, We saw that Hieu looked real sad, so Aya suggests we go buy him a cake, so me Ely, and Aya run off from the rest of them, and go to Andersons Bakery. We buy him a piece of a cake, AND some other shit. I dont kno what it was. ahAHa Then we ran to Victoria Secret to buy him the THONG he lost @ the game!! But, we went to Charlotte Rousse, and we found a perfect one. ahAHa it had a bow on it, and it was like a bow for a present? So we taped it on the box with the cake in it. Hieu kept calling, and we kept saying we were in the bathroom. We were gone for like 30 minutes or something. ahAHaha and he thought we were literalli taking a shit. ahAHaha, and then I forgot who suggested the balloon but it wasn't me. I think it was Ely? So we stop by Ghiradelli Ice Cream, and the guy is like staring at AYA ahAHahaha and we tell Ely to go pretend she's a little girl and she asks for a balloon. So she says "Can I get a balloon, the people at Customer Service wouldn't give me one" and the guy says "Why??" ahAHa and she says "B/c I needed to be with my mom but I was with my sister." And the guy says "Oh her...  I'm Sorry!! But I'm not sure If i can do it!" And Ely says its okay, so we see pink balloons @ another store, and we tell Ely to go in again, and she says the same thing, and the lady gives it! AND the balloon was pink! COOL! So we get to California pizza and we make him open it. and as usual Hieu says "It better not be no thong!!" ahAHaha but whoops, part of it was. Well Frank and David are funny as hell. ahAHha "mMmm I like it like that." ahAHah and "Do you guys want some more? You guys still look hungry"..."Uh Oh, I know what you're trying to pull! Shame on you. The girl @ Mcdonalds tried doing that to me, she wanted me to change my order to Super Size." ahAHAH "Hey!! What kinna pizza is that? Dang... They put it through a paper shredder." HAAHah.. "awww Hieu, yoooo sixteeenn noowweee." ahAHahha, then the walk around the WHOLE mall. ahAHa I mean outside. ahAhah and I really think Philip hates me. I'm SORRY! Well our new adventure is streaking with Aya, Ely, Mel, and Nat and after trying flavored "stuff". ahAHahah =) Next weekend baby! Yay-yuH! Alright Aya!!! seriously! we better!! Well I'm kind of like out if it right now, oh yea! I forgot to mention earlier, Jeff and Carrie are together now =) Since October 15, 2004 after school. "I have a boyfriend" bracelet. ahAHah  yihee!! ahAHa Well anyways, I'm gonna go. If I forgot something, then I'll add it later on. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIEU!! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH THANKS FOR EVERYTHING AND I HOPED YOU ENJOYED TODAY. SMILE PLEASE!!! =) YOU'RE THE BEST EVER! I LOVE YOU BRO!